Stuffs

1. Its 46 more days til G is finally back home. Nothing gets me more excited than this.

2. The past two weeks have been possibly the worst weeks of this sem, and I've realized that there's more things for me to worry/ more things that I'm worried about. Its a bad feeling because of all the negativity that surrounds and I feel upset more than half the time. Let's hope things start to get better soon.

3. Learning to love you more. Loving you is opening up more and showing you the side of me that no one else had ever seen, it is letting you see the insecurities that I've always had but somehow managed to hide it well. Loving you is letting you in, and daring to be more vulnerable because I trust that you'l keep me safe. Loving you is learning the art of compromise, is wanting the best for you, is patiently anticipating and keeping the faith.

“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable.”
— C.S. Lewis

Its a strange feeling when the person I feel emotionally closest to is the farthest away.

4. Thinking about what B said about how I (used to) live my life, and how everything is so different now.